i'm still feeling rather angry. (yes, we learnt in lessons to use "WORDS" to express ourselves instead of any form of agression..) and i'm applying them now.

stop all that roller coaster rides. i dont want to die of heart attack at the age of 17. i havent yet to be filial towards my parents. i havent yet to get a sweeet bf, a loving husband and lovely devils of my own. i havent yet to be the bridesmaids of my hpys. i havent.. i havent.. yet to do alot of things. and wait, yes to bitch enough of my day. =)

it's those accumlating "trying-to-be-patient" kind of thing that is getting onto my nerves. seriously, i've limited patience. or rather... i dont have much patience towards alot of things/ppl... and this is the first time, i tried to.. accomodate and give in all the time. none of my friends ever get this "elaine is super patient towards me" kind of treatment because i'll just tell them to screw off or... well, face the wall and think abt their actions.

next, dont try to think the world of yourself.
i dont see anything special in you. what's the 'wow' factor that's allowing you to attitude all that you want? we dont deserve that, esp after all that we've done.. come monday, i tell myself-everything will be fine. the sun will shine brightly (it did) and well, it'll be a beautiful day. stupid shit, i dont even know why did i even attempted to create such a wonderful scenario. apart from those descriptions, the day turned out shitty.

i tried hard to contain my displease but i guess, i failed miserably.
ppl with high EQ will still flash a sweet little smile.. regardless of what's happening and how angry they are. wait, maybe they never ever got angry. BUT no, elaine is not one with high EQ. i admit it.. so.. i've my anger/frustrations written all over my face.

"forgive and forget" is sth which he has been telling me since day one when we become hpy. till now, i rmber. but i forgive and tried to forget abt this.. and again i failed.
imagine given shit for countless of times and each time you're containing your anger.. trying to be forgiving.. then, it happened again. i stressed, AGAIN.

... what. is. this?!
last note, i am still angry.

PS. dont come round commenting on this post. dont even bother to guess what i'm typing abt
i'll just delete off all related tags that i'm bu shuang with.